My life for the past months has been really well, there’s a few twist and turns from time to time but I managed. I must say that my system have fully coped up and embraced the way of living here in the UAE, thanks to my cousin and her friends I was able to go out of my shell and just be out there and gain new experiences. I also missed the feeling of “having fun”, mainly because at first I hesitated and denied myself the opportunity to experience it because I am not in my comfort zone. But as time goes by, I am being myself again – being young, carefree, and enjoying life. As I always say, “carpe diem.”
So here’s the story of my life so far.   
➸Beach weekends. For a month and a half, we have spent out weekends on the beach. Every Thursday night we go to this kind of secluded beach in Ajman (free zone) to spend the night there – my aunt, Nella, Ate Jo my uncle’s brother and his daughter Bakoot, and his son Omar and his family. We do some barbecues, a little drinking (Nella, Ate Jo and I), and of course overnight swimming. It’s really a breath of fresh air after five days of being stressed at work; it’s really nice to spend one night thinking about nothing but just enjoying the moment. All of this was my aunt’s effort and I really appreciate her for being the way she is to us. She’s very caring and thoughtful, and not really “strict”. So aside from being away from my family, things like these makes me feel that I am home.
➸Sunrise and waves. Who wouldn’t fall in love waking up to such beautiful sunrise and the calm roar of the waves in the morning? I don’t know about you but I honestly love waking up to such kind of beauty. I can’t even take my eyes off it while we’re on the road, and that’s something that I really look forward every weekend. Such beauty keeps me coming back for more.
➸ Keeping up with friends. Aside from my constant Skype weekends with my family, another thing that makes me feel “home” somehow is my friends’ effort to be updated and constantly keeping up with each other’s lives. MV and I are constantly making video calls thru WeChat, despite the huge time difference; I’m glad that we can manage. Mommy C sending pictures of baby G through WeChat and Messenger, which makes me miss them more because baby G is growing too fast and becoming more adorable each day. Same goes with the rest of CrooCroo loves, Kuya Erwin in Singapore, Larissa’s busy being on the theatre production team, Missy and Kriztal are also busy with their respective work. And just recently that I had a short conversations with Lian since USA and UAE has the biggest time difference, it’s really a challenge for us to even chat because the replies are one day late! I guess this is the toughest challenge for long distance friendships – challenge accepted!
➸ Letting go and starting anew. Upon Jade’s passing, I do believe that the heavens gained an additional angel on the team. It was one of the lowest points in my life that I chose to grieve in silence and just reminisce all what we had. It took me by surprise to receive such amount of care and emotional support from a person who I barely knew. I didn’t ask for this person to do so but he comforted me and made me feel that I am not alone. This person exerted an effort to at least ease the pain that I’m feeling during that time and then I realized, “maybe this person’s an angel in disguise and was sent to comfort me during this time.” Somehow, it makes me feel relieved. How I met this person you asked? It was roughly two months ago when someone sent me a random message on WeChat while I was talking with one of my friends. I don’t usually check and accept invites because I just don’t feel like it. But I don’t know what has gotten to me that night that I decided to check on this person’s profile and poof! I accepted the invitation. We started talking and to be honest, I rarely encountered someone who can speak English well (which is also the reason why I don’t usually talk/virtually meet people through messaging or social networking applications). At first I thought that this is just one of those “one – night conversations” between two bored people. Surprisingly, our conversations went on for hours, days, and until now. I don’t want to reveal any more information about this person, for now I want to keep it to myself (if you know what I mean). So my point is, it feels good to know someone, a random stranger for instance, and you’re on that stage of “getting to know each other” and not necessarily on a romantic level; the process itself feels good, getting to know someone and vice versa.
➸ In addition, I couldn’t be more thankful that my cousin allowed me to enter into her world. She treats me like an older sister and I treat her like mine too. Not only that, I get to know her closest friends and now I act like their big sister which for me is amazing! 
➸ Spontaneous road trips. My family and friends knew how much I love random and spontaneous road trips. I just love being on the road! Thanks to my cousin and her “friends” because we get to have late night road trips going elsewhere. If the car has a turbo, well that’s a bonus already. I don’t know what’s with the city lights but they make me appreciate a city more during night time. It’s just so mesmerizing to see the sparkling lights, the buildings, even the roads – they’re all beautiful.
➸ I don’t know what’s with my eyes that makes Jawaher obsessive about it. She always insists on putting make up on my face, but I think her favorite feature really is my eyes. After several attempts and offers to make me over, I finally gave in but only for my eyes. She bought me a light blue contact lenses and put four various mascaras on my lashes and poof! Hello gorgeous eyes (yeah I’m claiming it already that my eyes are gorgeous too). Even my mom almost didn’t recognize me when I sent her the picture of my made – up eyes! Well, I haven’t really appreciated my eyes before because for me they’re small and the lashes are very short as well, so for me there’s nothing special about it. It became one of my insecurities even. But not anymore, thanks to Jawaher I came to realize that my eyes can be this beautiful too.
➸ Last but definitely not the least, it’s my mom’s birthday tomorrow. I don’t know what to feel, but definitely I’m a bit sad because I miss her so much and I want her to be happy on her birthday. Her birthday last year was so memorable because I got a hangover geez! It was a simple celebration but I know she’s happy. I just want her to be happy on her special day, but I guess I’ll just make it up to her next year on my vacation.
Oh wow! I had a pretty long story here and I have so much to be thankful for. Happy mid – week to all of you earthlings!♥

 

My life for the past months has been really well, there’s a few twist and turns from time to time but I managed. I must say that my system have fully coped up and embraced the way of living here in the UAE, thanks to my cousin and her friends I was able to go out of my shell and just be out there and gain new experiences. I also missed the feeling of “having fun”, mainly because at first I hesitated and denied myself the opportunity to experience it because I am not in my comfort zone. But as time goes by, I am being myself again – being young, carefree, and enjoying life. As I always say, “carpe diem.”

So here’s the story of my life so far.   

Beach weekends. For a month and a half, we have spent out weekends on the beach. Every Thursday night we go to this kind of secluded beach in Ajman (free zone) to spend the night there – my aunt, Nella, Ate Jo my uncle’s brother and his daughter Bakoot, and his son Omar and his family. We do some barbecues, a little drinking (Nella, Ate Jo and I), and of course overnight swimming. It’s really a breath of fresh air after five days of being stressed at work; it’s really nice to spend one night thinking about nothing but just enjoying the moment. All of this was my aunt’s effort and I really appreciate her for being the way she is to us. She’s very caring and thoughtful, and not really “strict”. So aside from being away from my family, things like these makes me feel that I am home.

Sunrise and waves. Who wouldn’t fall in love waking up to such beautiful sunrise and the calm roar of the waves in the morning? I don’t know about you but I honestly love waking up to such kind of beauty. I can’t even take my eyes off it while we’re on the road, and that’s something that I really look forward every weekend. Such beauty keeps me coming back for more.

Keeping up with friends. Aside from my constant Skype weekends with my family, another thing that makes me feel “home” somehow is my friends’ effort to be updated and constantly keeping up with each other’s lives. MV and I are constantly making video calls thru WeChat, despite the huge time difference; I’m glad that we can manage. Mommy C sending pictures of baby G through WeChat and Messenger, which makes me miss them more because baby G is growing too fast and becoming more adorable each day. Same goes with the rest of CrooCroo loves, Kuya Erwin in Singapore, Larissa’s busy being on the theatre production team, Missy and Kriztal are also busy with their respective work. And just recently that I had a short conversations with Lian since USA and UAE has the biggest time difference, it’s really a challenge for us to even chat because the replies are one day late! I guess this is the toughest challenge for long distance friendships – challenge accepted!

Letting go and starting anew. Upon Jade’s passing, I do believe that the heavens gained an additional angel on the team. It was one of the lowest points in my life that I chose to grieve in silence and just reminisce all what we had. It took me by surprise to receive such amount of care and emotional support from a person who I barely knew. I didn’t ask for this person to do so but he comforted me and made me feel that I am not alone. This person exerted an effort to at least ease the pain that I’m feeling during that time and then I realized, “maybe this person’s an angel in disguise and was sent to comfort me during this time.” Somehow, it makes me feel relieved. How I met this person you asked? It was roughly two months ago when someone sent me a random message on WeChat while I was talking with one of my friends. I don’t usually check and accept invites because I just don’t feel like it. But I don’t know what has gotten to me that night that I decided to check on this person’s profile and poof! I accepted the invitation. We started talking and to be honest, I rarely encountered someone who can speak English well (which is also the reason why I don’t usually talk/virtually meet people through messaging or social networking applications). At first I thought that this is just one of those “one – night conversations” between two bored people. Surprisingly, our conversations went on for hours, days, and until now. I don’t want to reveal any more information about this person, for now I want to keep it to myself (if you know what I mean). So my point is, it feels good to know someone, a random stranger for instance, and you’re on that stage of “getting to know each other” and not necessarily on a romantic level; the process itself feels good, getting to know someone and vice versa.

In addition, I couldn’t be more thankful that my cousin allowed me to enter into her world. She treats me like an older sister and I treat her like mine too. Not only that, I get to know her closest friends and now I act like their big sister which for me is amazing!

Spontaneous road trips. My family and friends knew how much I love random and spontaneous road trips. I just love being on the road! Thanks to my cousin and her “friends” because we get to have late night road trips going elsewhere. If the car has a turbo, well that’s a bonus already. I don’t know what’s with the city lights but they make me appreciate a city more during night time. It’s just so mesmerizing to see the sparkling lights, the buildings, even the roads – they’re all beautiful.

I don’t know what’s with my eyes that makes Jawaher obsessive about it. She always insists on putting make up on my face, but I think her favorite feature really is my eyes. After several attempts and offers to make me over, I finally gave in but only for my eyes. She bought me a light blue contact lenses and put four various mascaras on my lashes and poof! Hello gorgeous eyes (yeah I’m claiming it already that my eyes are gorgeous too). Even my mom almost didn’t recognize me when I sent her the picture of my made – up eyes! Well, I haven’t really appreciated my eyes before because for me they’re small and the lashes are very short as well, so for me there’s nothing special about it. It became one of my insecurities even. But not anymore, thanks to Jawaher I came to realize that my eyes can be this beautiful too.

Last but definitely not the least, it’s my mom’s birthday tomorrow. I don’t know what to feel, but definitely I’m a bit sad because I miss her so much and I want her to be happy on her birthday. Her birthday last year was so memorable because I got a hangover geez! It was a simple celebration but I know she’s happy. I just want her to be happy on her special day, but I guess I’ll just make it up to her next year on my vacation.

Oh wow! I had a pretty long story here and I have so much to be thankful for. Happy mid – week to all of you earthlings!♥

(Source: brokenreylroad)

Maybe two months ago I asked my friends to share with me what are the top 5 lists of the things that they value the most in their life, the things, people, event, or merely just anything that they value so much they cannot live without so to speak. I have been meaning to publish this post but for whatever reasons I just didn’t feel like “it’s the right time” yet, until today. 
But before going on to my list, I would like to share four lists from the people who took the time and effort to share what they value the most in their life. 
From Paola Aquino, Professional Business Analyst and a very close friend of mine:
Passion – Whatever it may be, belief (religion), love, friends, work, hobby, and a lot more which are related in my life, passion is my reason, my drive and my inspiration to make things happen :)
Family – Friends included, since I considered friends as my family. Family because they’ve been there through good times and rough times.
Trust/Honesty/Credibility
Efficiency and Effectiveness
Care/Love – Related with passion
From Sir Antonio Ingles, Educator/Founder of Aral Pinoy and Full Time Faculty at DLS – CSB:
“There is a demand upon us to be a per­son of God, for oth­ers and for cre­ation and there is a call to sac­ri­fice on their behalf, to put aside self­ish­ness and be com­mit­ted for the cause of what will truly bring more ease in their lives (nakakaluwag) because in the final analy­sis and reflec­tion: “anu­mang nakapag-uugnay sa Diyos, sa kapwa, sa sar­ili at sa kalikasan ay nakaka­pag­paluwag” (rela­tion­ships with God, oth­ers, one­self and nature make for a life of ease.) In other words, “anu­mang nakapag-uugnay ay nakaka­pag­paluwag” (rela­tion­ships make for a life of ease). 
To know more about the Aral Pinoy, you may visit their official website.
From Frenz Jorisse Ilan, 16 year old College Student and a very close cousin of mine:
LOVE LIFE – inspirasyon sa mga bagay at pagsubok sa buhay. (To give us inspiration to do the things that we do and to face all the challenges in life.)
FAMILY – sandalan sa lahat ng problema at katulong sa pagbangon sa buhay. (They are the ones who we can lean on in times of hardships and will help us to build a good future for ourselves.)
FRIENDS – kaagapay sa lahat ng problemang kinkaharap – sa pamilya man o lovelife. (They are the ones who we can lean on when we’re faced with challenges about family and love life.)
STUDY – para may ipagmalaki tayo sa ating sarili. (So we can have something to be proud of about ourselves, our own achievement.)
VIRGINITY – para may maipagmalaki tayo sa ating magiging kabiyak. (Something that we can proudly and wholeheartedly offer to our future significant other.) 
From Amlenur Bayot, fellow DLS – CSB Alumni and Center for Social Action Volunteer:
“Aside from my family and my faith ;) well i still have things that i can’t really live without:
My bed – my bed and i are definitely in a serious and critical relationship ;)
Comfort room – must be always clean! I always find pleasure with a white, quiet, clean and very MABANGO (well – ventilated) CR! ;) 
Journal and pen – well need i say more? Girls have always something to say :) Some of it is better be on papers.
Book/magazine – I like and love learning anything under the sun. And i would still chose reading a book rather than watching “Legal Wife” -_- 
Air-condition – I don’t like heat and the sun! As same as my bed, the AC serves as my “other woman” :)))”
So before I write down my own list, I would like to thank all of you for sharing with me the things that are dear to you and you considered valuable. To be honest, I was really amazed because I can feel that these things that you listed are really significant for all of you.
Without further ado, here goes mine.
It’s been week since I received the most devastating news this year – that I lost one of my dearest friends. Hence, I have decided to pour my heart on this post since her passing has made me re – evaluate the things that I value in my life.
Relationships. We only have this lifetime but the number of people that we are going to meet amazes me; lots of them but only few gets to stay and stick until the day that we are buried under the ground. For me, it is never about the quantity but the quality of people that we have in our life. Millions of people but there’s only a few of them who possess the capability to change our life forever. Some of them are only meant to teach us a lesson and some of them are meant to stay. And when you have found these kind of people, value them, tell them how much they mean to you, express your gratefulness and love for them, let them know in what ways they have touched and changed your life, thank them for all the lessons and experiences that they have shared with you, and cherish even the bad moments with them. And finally, tell them that life will never be the same without them around.
Time. Time is a valuable and limited commodity that you can never get back when given or shared already. That is why you should be careful and wise in using it, because once exhausted, you cannot regain it. Personally, I categorize time into two zones – past and present. The past “aka yesterday” definitely is the zone for all the time you spent already and the present represents the “now and today”. There is nothing, and I mean nothing that you can do to change what’s happened in the past, should you have regrets – you can only learn from it and move forward with your life. The present however, is very important as well. For me, you can only live now and don’t worry about the future because the concept itself exists today. Think about it, when do you think about the “future”? Isn’t it now? Isn’t it today? Future only exists because you think about it now, at this very moment. The present is a gift and the future is uncertain, but it is important to remember that whatever you do today will definitely affect your game plan tomorrow. That is why I always say that “do whatever it is that you can do now because you’ll never know if you still have the time to do it tomorrow, don’t waste your chance.”   
Experiences. This is a collection of your life in bits and pieces. This consists of all the good and bad memories that you’ve gained in this lifetime. I’ve got three equations for this – E = T (contentment as measuring factor), E > T (accomplishments, achievements & success stories, failures, adventures, etc. are just some of the measuring factors), and lastly E < T (regrets, resentment, “what ifs”, etc. are just some of the measuring factors). The first equation says that your time is enough to collect experiences in this lifetime, and this can be measure by how contented you feel with what’s happened and currently happening in your life. Contentment brings happiness although unfortunately, it rarely exists nowadays. When you feel like you’ve done what you’re supposed to do and you’ve “lived your life to the fullest” considering all the experiences that you have gained, ergo you are contented and can “move on” happily without regrets. This is almost the same with the second equation, just that on the second one, you are able to gain “so much” experience from the limited time that you have. This is true and highly possible for highly active and resourceful people. There are people who are blessed with so many resources as compare to some who still have to work and strive harder to achieve this. The last equation is the “unfortunate” one and this is where they always say “if I could turn back time” which obviously is not possible in any realm. This is the exact opposite of the first equation where people feel that they weren’t able to fully utilize or use responsibly the time that they’re given in this lifetime. Hence, their last minutes would be full of regrets and imaginations of “what could have been”, and “what ifs”. Consider time as one of the rarest and precious treasures, a very expensive gift given to us by our Creator. Experiences are what we make out of the time given to us. This makes our life worth remembering. And this proves that we have lived.
Trust. BIG WORD. To me, giving my trust to someone is a big risk, something like putting my heart on the line. It’s like giving a part of me to them and that if the trust was breached; I will never be the same again. Trust is your capability as a human being to believe and have faith in other people. That is why, when you have earned that trust from other people, treat it with utmost care, because trust, just like a broken mirror can be fixed but you can still see those cracks all over.
KSCs. This acronym stands for Knowledge, Skills, and Capability. These three can all be achieved from the experiences that we have gained over time. Knowledge, as the intangible one can be gained inside a remote environment such as educational institutions but can also be gained out there in the streets. A combination of both is pretty awesome. Skills on the other hand are your ability to execute something based on what you have learned. Then there is capability which is the summation of ability and your capacity as a person. This is when you’ve earned the knowledge, and not only you’re able to execute it but also you’re capable as well. These are very crucial factors for a person to survive the real world. Utilizing these factors responsibly can determine the success rate of whatever it is that you’re doing or planning to do. If you possess these, you will not fear the world. These factors are your weapon, a very powerful set of weapon, now go out and fight.

Maybe two months ago I asked my friends to share with me what are the top 5 lists of the things that they value the most in their life, the things, people, event, or merely just anything that they value so much they cannot live without so to speak. I have been meaning to publish this post but for whatever reasons I just didn’t feel like “it’s the right time” yet, until today.

But before going on to my list, I would like to share four lists from the people who took the time and effort to share what they value the most in their life.

From Paola Aquino, Professional Business Analyst and a very close friend of mine:

From Sir Antonio Ingles, Educator/Founder of Aral Pinoy and Full Time Faculty at DLS – CSB:

There is a demand upon us to be a per­son of God, for oth­ers and for cre­ation and there is a call to sac­ri­fice on their behalf, to put aside self­ish­ness and be com­mit­ted for the cause of what will truly bring more ease in their lives (nakakaluwag) because in the final analy­sis and reflec­tion: “anu­mang nakapag-uugnay sa Diyos, sa kapwa, sa sar­ili at sa kalikasan ay nakaka­pag­paluwag” (rela­tion­ships with God, oth­ers, one­self and nature make for a life of ease.) In other words, “anu­mang nakapag-uugnay ay nakaka­pag­paluwag” (rela­tion­ships make for a life of ease).

To know more about the Aral Pinoy, you may visit their official website.

From Frenz Jorisse Ilan, 16 year old College Student and a very close cousin of mine:

From Amlenur Bayot, fellow DLS – CSB Alumni and Center for Social Action Volunteer:

“Aside from my family and my faith ;) well i still have things that i can’t really live without:

So before I write down my own list, I would like to thank all of you for sharing with me the things that are dear to you and you considered valuable. To be honest, I was really amazed because I can feel that these things that you listed are really significant for all of you.

Without further ado, here goes mine.

It’s been week since I received the most devastating news this year – that I lost one of my dearest friends. Hence, I have decided to pour my heart on this post since her passing has made me re – evaluate the things that I value in my life.

(Source: brokenreylroad)

All About Jade

This is the story of how we met.

It was May 2011, Internship/OJT period, I’ve decided to apply as an HR Intern in GIZ, the non - profit organization where my “terror professor” also works as an HR Manager. Luckily, I was chosen for a 6 - month internship contract.

This is where I met this free - spirited young lady named Jade Ayanna Fernandez. She’s tall, has mid - length hair, she has retainers, chinita eyes, slender/boyish body type, and always wears that freakingly cute smile.

A few days after, the whole team went for a 3-day teambuilding, and this is where I get to know her better. We became roommates for 3 days.

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This is our first "roomie selfie" during our first night at the hotel. We were actually waiting for our co - interns to arrive together with our drinks.

She’s one of the sweetest girls I’ve known. In the office, she always put some sticky notes with random cute and sweet messages in it everywhere - under my laptop, at the back of my chair, on my planner, everywhere. She does that everyday, and funny because whenever I arrive at the office, it became my hobby to look for her notes everywhere. I still keep them on my planner.

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Being born with a wanderlust soul, her "let’s do this!" attitude is one that I really admire about her. She’s a natural adventurer. She’s a tough cookie and never turndown challenge, specially if it has something to do with food (oh my! she maybe thin but she eats like a construction worker you’ll be asking where all the foods go).

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(Source: brokenreylroad)

26 Ways To Preserve Your Kids’ Memories Forever

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Imprint a damaged teddy before throwing it away.

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Take a cue from Australian artist Geoffrey Ricardo by applying a light coat of paint to the front of your kid’s teddy and pressing it against craft paper.

Turn one of your kid’s drawings into a key chain.

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You can also turn a drawing into a softie.

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Preserve your baby’s hospital hat and I.D. bracelet in an ornament.

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Make a family yearbook.

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Catalogue memorable items from each school year.

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All you need are file folders and a filing cabinet or milk crate.

Another fun option is to make school memory boxes.

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Keep an Ugly Photo Book.

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Instead of throwing out or deleting unflattering photos, save them in a photo book! One day you and your kids will laugh hysterically as you flip through it.

Take humorously inappropriate photos to give to your kid upon graduating from high school.

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Your kid will probably think you’re nuts, but also pretty damn funny.

Save ticket stubs to every show, concert, and game that you see together.

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17 Of The Most Unusual Beaches Around The World

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UNIQUE GLASS BEACH IN CALIFORNIA

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The glass beach near Fort Bragg in California formed after the trash dumped there for years by local residents was pounded into sand by the surf. The dumping was eventually prohibited, but the glass sand remains.

HIDDEN BEACH IN MARIETA, MEXICO

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This beach in Mexico is said to have formed after the Mexican government used the uninhabited islands for target practice in the 1900s.

MALDIVES BEACH THAT LOOKS LIKE STARRY NIGHT SKY

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The lights on this beach in the Maldives are caused by microscopic bioluminescent phytoplankton, which give off light when they are agitated by the surf.

THE BEACH OF THE CATHEDRALS, RIBADEO, SPAIN

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The stunning cathedral-like arches and buttresses of this beach in Spain were formed by pounding water over thousands upon thousands years.

PINK SAND BEACH, BAHAMAS

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The idyllic pink sand of the Bahamas is pigmented by washed-up coral remnants, which are dashed and ground to tiny pieces by the surf.

EXTREME PLANE LANDINGS AT MAHO BEACH, SAINT MARTIN

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JOKULSARLON, ICELAND

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The black volcanic sand on this Icelandic beach contrasts beautifully with the white and glassy chunks of ice.

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will-you-be-electric-sheep:

Watch it in video

interesting how the answers change as the men get younger

(Source: sizvideos)

                                         C U R R E N T L Y …
♥ reading tons of articles about super food ingredients and technical specifications of chocolate processing equipment. Feels like college thesis all over!
♥ writing this post and some other work – related tasks on my planner.
♥ listening to All About That Bass by Meghan Trainor. I’ve been obsessing with this song since last week, together with Crazy Stupid Love by Cheryl Cole, Not a Bad Thing by JT and Bailando of Enrique Iglesias. Hearts all over!
♥ thinking about making the biggest technology hop of my life by buying a decent iPhone 5. Well, i’m not really a techie person and it’s pretty expensive as well so deciding to finally purchase an iPhone would be a milestone for me.
♥ smelling the scent of ESCAPE perfume all over me. For a person who’s not into perfumes, other than my all time favorite CK One of course, I really like the scent of ESCAPE – feminine yet not too girly. 
♥ wishing for another getaway this coming weekend. I’ve been spending weekends on the beach for three consecutive weekends already, and to be honest, i wouldn’t mind spending all weekends there, at least not until winter.
♥ hoping that everything will fall into their proper places, in God’s time. 
♥ wearing body hugging long skirt in navy blue, i don’t know how to call it really; paired with purple cotton semi – cropped top which is a bit blousy in style and of course, my trusty pair of strapped sandals in black with hint of silver.
♥ loving the empowering and liberating (in a good way) feeling of being with myself and myself alone. Do the things I never thought I’d do in my life, exploring the wholeness of my entire being, testing my limitations, and do things that makes me question my beliefs but at the same time makes me stand firmly about my values in life. I must say that currently, I’m in the process of enriching and opening myself to possibilities. I guess breaking up with her is not a bad decision after all. At least I have all the time to myself now.
♥ wanting for this day to end already because I want to go home and take a good rest. I do believe two days is not enough.
♥ feeling happy and contented with respect to where my life is currently heading right now. I am not perfect but who is, right? I still do a lot of mistakes but it’s what makes me human. I may not be stinking rich but I have all the experiences that i earned from trying to live my life to the fullest. And i thank Him for that; i thank Him for taking good care of me always. 
Hope you lovely earthlings are having a blast this weekend! Be safe and don’t forget to look up and thank Him for all the blessing. :)
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                                         C U R R E N T L Y …

reading tons of articles about super food ingredients and technical specifications of chocolate processing equipment. Feels like college thesis all over!

writing this post and some other work – related tasks on my planner.

listening to All About That Bass by Meghan Trainor. I’ve been obsessing with this song since last week, together with Crazy Stupid Love by Cheryl Cole, Not a Bad Thing by JT and Bailando of Enrique Iglesias. Hearts all over!

thinking about making the biggest technology hop of my life by buying a decent iPhone 5. Well, i’m not really a techie person and it’s pretty expensive as well so deciding to finally purchase an iPhone would be a milestone for me.

smelling the scent of ESCAPE perfume all over me. For a person who’s not into perfumes, other than my all time favorite CK One of course, I really like the scent of ESCAPE – feminine yet not too girly. 

wishing for another getaway this coming weekend. I’ve been spending weekends on the beach for three consecutive weekends already, and to be honest, i wouldn’t mind spending all weekends there, at least not until winter.

hoping that everything will fall into their proper places, in God’s time.

wearing body hugging long skirt in navy blue, i don’t know how to call it really; paired with purple cotton semi – cropped top which is a bit blousy in style and of course, my trusty pair of strapped sandals in black with hint of silver.

loving the empowering and liberating (in a good way) feeling of being with myself and myself alone. Do the things I never thought I’d do in my life, exploring the wholeness of my entire being, testing my limitations, and do things that makes me question my beliefs but at the same time makes me stand firmly about my values in life. I must say that currently, I’m in the process of enriching and opening myself to possibilities. I guess breaking up with her is not a bad decision after all. At least I have all the time to myself now.

wanting for this day to end already because I want to go home and take a good rest. I do believe two days is not enough.

feeling happy and contented with respect to where my life is currently heading right now. I am not perfect but who is, right? I still do a lot of mistakes but it’s what makes me human. I may not be stinking rich but I have all the experiences that i earned from trying to live my life to the fullest. And i thank Him for that; i thank Him for taking good care of me always.

Hope you lovely earthlings are having a blast this weekend! Be safe and don’t forget to look up and thank Him for all the blessing. :)

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August 12, 2014

I dreamt about you last night, no this morning I mean, exactly an hour before the alarm snooze. In my dreams I saw you yelling back at me, full of anger and overwhelming pain, and I’ve never seen myself so scared of someone in my entire life. I saw myself walking as fast as I could, with shaking hands. I don’t know but for whatever reason I don’t want you to be near me in any way. If that’s how much pain I’ve cost you, curse me then, do not forgive me, hate me for the rest of your life and wish not to see me again, or our paths to ever not cross again for that matter. Just like what I told you, shake it off, you’ll be fine.

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BLUE IS THE WARMEST COLOR

BLUE IS THE WARMEST COLOR

10 Things I Recklessly Made You Feel Which I Am Sorry For

It is never easy to fall in love with someone who’s emotionally bipolar. Emotionally Bipolar, is that even a legit mental or psychological term? Well, that’s how I describe my mental state when it comes to being in a relationship. Loving someone with a mental state like mine could be very frustrating; mentally tiring, disappointing, and can make you go insane even. I can go from the very loving, sweet, caring, bubbly, and thoughtful girlfriend today to a complete “look all the fucks I care” kind of bitch the next day. My personality exists on the both ends of the string, I can’t do middle. Loving someone like me is a very tough job and the worst thing that could happen is you regretting that you even dared yourself to fall in love with me only to get hurt at the end. This state, let me tell you, is also hard for me to explain and understand, well at least I had the creativity to give it a name for that matter. This past few weeks, or it’s been a month or two already that I’ve been this kind of person, a total opposite of the person you used to know and love, you might be asking questions like “who the hell are you?” or “what did you do to my girlfriend?” So here’s the list of the 10 things I know I recklessly made you feel, and maybe still feeling until now which I am sorry for.

  1. Wondering. I know you are wondering what has happened to me, why the sudden coldness and my seemingly don’t care behavior towards you. Maybe you have a lot of questions in your mind right now, like what’s wrong and everything; I don’t even know how to answer that to be honest. While it is I who made you wonder like this, I hope it wouldn’t be too much for me to ask for your understanding and patience; even though you’ve found no reason to understand me at all.    
  2. Frustrated. Tons of messages and stories every day and only a few messages in return, that’s frustrating enough. It’s as if I don’t really care how the hell you’ve been and or I’m too busy I don’t even have the time to tell you how my day went by. I may have not in your shoes but trust me; I know how frustrating that can be.
  3. Hanging. I’ve changed all of a sudden and without a single word or any explanation, you’re hanged. I know it’s unfair because I could’ve at least tried to explain this state that I’m going through right now, but the very thought of my current condition don’t make sense to me either so I cannot bring myself to explain it to you. I left you hanging and wondering like a lost soul seeking for answers and I’m sorry for that.  
  4. Doubtful. We’re in a long distance relationship and when communication gets a little choppy, sure thing we’ll be screwed. If my being emotionally bipolar cause you any doubt, I’m sorry. If this causes you to question my love for you, I will not hold it against you. But I don’t know what to feel anymore.
  5. Unloved. By some reason that I made you feel unloved because of my being emotionally bipolar, I’m sorry. That would be the last thing that I wanted you to feel but I still made you feel this way. It must be miserable to see that the person you love is slowly drifting away and that you cannot do a thing about it because she won’t let you. It seems to you that all my walls have gone up and there’s no way that i’ll let you in, but the truth is, there is no wall. Just that I’ve become invisible even to myself.  
  6. Insignificant. I knew you were sick and I didn’t even bothered to ask if you’re well already or how you’ve been. That was very un-thoughtful of me as a girlfriend and prolly made you feel unimportant during that time. I used to cry as a baby when I was worrying about you, when something bad has happened to you but then all of a sudden, not a single drop of caring from me. I’m sorry. 
  7. Ignored. “SEEN” four letter word but hurts like hell when you experienced it. And I did that to you one too many times. 
  8. Alone. We used to talk a lot before, daydream every night; we used to plan things and joke around things…but now that I feel like distancing myself from you, I know it breaks your heart when every night I make you feel alone. Maybe I’ve been so cruel because I couldn’t even bring myself to say a decent good night. 
  9. Sad. I know it makes you feel sad thinking about what’s happening between us, scared things are falling apart and you don’t even notice it, and it also makes you sad because we are million miles away from each other and you thought to yourself that if only you could give me a hug, things might go back to the way they were. What’s even sadder is that the very thought of me and my unfortunate condition makes you sad. 
  10. Hurt. All of these sums up to this feeling - HURT. It’s painful enough that you can’t do a thing about my unfortunate condition, but the thought of me not doing anything about it is what hurts you the most. You’re afraid that I might let it all happen and let things break just like that. Well, here’s a news for you, you’re wrong because I am doing everything to think through things, evaluate myself, and even reminisce all the moments we had just to find what has been hiding for a moment.

I am sorry for making you feel like this, but I cannot be sorry for being an emotional bipolar because this is part of who I am. I know I am hard to love, but if you could just hold on for a little bit longer, maybe you’ll realize that I can be bearable at times, you’ll just have to be very patient with me because I might tend to push you away for so many times, although what I’ve been meaning to tell you is to stay by my side.    

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Friendship thru Life

I wasn’t able to greet all of my friends a happy International Best Friend’s Day that’s why I’ve thought of writing this post and list down significant friends that have created an impact in my life by far. To be honest, this list cannot cover all of them for they’re so many. Just think of it as a pre - preview then. 

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last summer…

last summer…

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Few snapshots from my spontaneous Friday roadtrip going to Abu Dhabi. I went there to pick up the package that my mom sent through our very good relative there. Since my uncle’s at work and my other cousin’s still sleeping, Chin, my aunt, and I have to take the public transportation going there. Bus ride from Sharjah to Abu Dhabi costs AED30.00 while going back costs only AED25.00 (I don’t know why is that).

The travel took roughly three hours and the ventilation inside the bus is not really very relaxing (or it’s just me being the meticulous kid that I am).

These photos were taken using Heaven (my trusty iTouch 4th Gen) which I always bring with me instead of my digital camera (because you know, much more handy).

This is basically my life so far and I’m looking forward for more spontaneous road trips and hopefully, a real hardcore summer activity sooner (which I badly need by the way). much love!

Abu Dhabi, UAE (2014)  

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Thank God for long weekend. I was able to be somehow productive at home, did a lot of Skype chikka with mom, was able to do some self – pampering stuff like manicure and pedicure which I haven’t done in ages already! Not to mention my body’s a bit sore from helping my cousin do some house chores, although it did me good actually because I burned some fats. Without further whatsoever, here are some snapshots of my life so far.
 ➸ Reminisced childhood memories when babe sent me this dragonfly that she caught on her camera while she and her friends are having a little reunion by the river. Nostalgic indeed! This picture reminded me that all the material things that I lack when I was a child was nothing as compared to all the life long memories that I have gained from living a simple yet adventurous life in the province.
➸ This random sketch that babe found on the balcony of their house. I’m so glad she found and sent it to me because then I had an idea as to what “gift or surprise” shall I make for her for our upcoming 6th month. 
➸ Awakening my inner somewhat artistic soul. I really couldn’t boast of my art skills but when I’m in the mood, I can be pretty artistic too. Since we’re on LDR, I really dedicate time and exert effort in doing something “special” for her. I’m a sucker for gift giving and I totally suck at giving gifts, but I do love to put some personal touch on everything that I will give to the people that I love. For this month, and my mood allowed me to do so, I tried to sketch some of my favorite pictures of her and two of them are sketches of her and her most hated crab! Seriously, I was laughing the entire time I was doing the sketches because I could only imagine her reaction on the crab. I haven’t done sketching in ages and I must say, I think the output’s satisfactory. Hey! It’s the effort that counts right?
➸ She’s the type of girl who’s not really into sweet things and I’m pretty sure she’s not even aware that she’s being sweet sometimes. She sent me these flowers and asked me randomly, “I haven’t gave you flowers before right?” which of course is a yes because I haven’t received a single leaf or petal from her before. I found it too cute and sweet of her because it seems like the idea just came out of nowhere but then the act itself is too sweet for me. I don’t know if she’s even aware that what she did is so nakakakilig.
➸ Chasing sunset every day. It has become a part of my everyday life to try and catch some sunset on my way home, then babe and I will exchange shots afterwards. It’s amazing how you get to see the same sun everyday yet you get to feel different emotions upon seeing it, you know what I mean? It’s like they may be the same sunset, but the memories or the events that you can acquaint to it would vary from time to time, it changes everyday.       
➸ So this sunflower grew out of our pet bird’s leftovers. I just find the situation quite amusing because I can relate her growth with the concept of adaptation. Isn’t it very challenging to adapt to an environment that is out of your comfort zone? Pretty scary yet the very thought of it excites me in a way that I wanted to be this sunflower – I can be thrown anywhere and still manage to live, bloom, and survive.
➸ Since I literally stayed inside the house the whole weekend, I decided to pay the front yard a visit. It was 6 o’clock in the afternoon when I decided to go out and these sparkly flashes of light caught my attention. It’s just so mesmerizing to see how they sparkle against the leaves and branches of the tree, so calm and so natural. Reminds me of home.
P.S. I wasn’t able to do some journal writing and updating of blog post ideas because I realized I have to give my eyes and brain a break from the computer and from anything that will further exhaust them. But Ramadan is fast approaching so maybe I’ll use my spare time during those days to totally have some journal lovin’ and blog posts updating. Much love! ♥   

Thank God for long weekend. I was able to be somehow productive at home, did a lot of Skype chikka with mom, was able to do some self – pampering stuff like manicure and pedicure which I haven’t done in ages already! Not to mention my body’s a bit sore from helping my cousin do some house chores, although it did me good actually because I burned some fats. Without further whatsoever, here are some snapshots of my life so far.

 Reminisced childhood memories when babe sent me this dragonfly that she caught on her camera while she and her friends are having a little reunion by the river. Nostalgic indeed! This picture reminded me that all the material things that I lack when I was a child was nothing as compared to all the life long memories that I have gained from living a simple yet adventurous life in the province.

This random sketch that babe found on the balcony of their house. I’m so glad she found and sent it to me because then I had an idea as to what “gift or surprise” shall I make for her for our upcoming 6th month.

Awakening my inner somewhat artistic soul. I really couldn’t boast of my art skills but when I’m in the mood, I can be pretty artistic too. Since we’re on LDR, I really dedicate time and exert effort in doing something “special” for her. I’m a sucker for gift giving and I totally suck at giving gifts, but I do love to put some personal touch on everything that I will give to the people that I love. For this month, and my mood allowed me to do so, I tried to sketch some of my favorite pictures of her and two of them are sketches of her and her most hated crab! Seriously, I was laughing the entire time I was doing the sketches because I could only imagine her reaction on the crab. I haven’t done sketching in ages and I must say, I think the output’s satisfactory. Hey! It’s the effort that counts right?

She’s the type of girl who’s not really into sweet things and I’m pretty sure she’s not even aware that she’s being sweet sometimes. She sent me these flowers and asked me randomly, “I haven’t gave you flowers before right?” which of course is a yes because I haven’t received a single leaf or petal from her before. I found it too cute and sweet of her because it seems like the idea just came out of nowhere but then the act itself is too sweet for me. I don’t know if she’s even aware that what she did is so nakakakilig.

Chasing sunset every day. It has become a part of my everyday life to try and catch some sunset on my way home, then babe and I will exchange shots afterwards. It’s amazing how you get to see the same sun everyday yet you get to feel different emotions upon seeing it, you know what I mean? It’s like they may be the same sunset, but the memories or the events that you can acquaint to it would vary from time to time, it changes everyday.       

So this sunflower grew out of our pet bird’s leftovers. I just find the situation quite amusing because I can relate her growth with the concept of adaptation. Isn’t it very challenging to adapt to an environment that is out of your comfort zone? Pretty scary yet the very thought of it excites me in a way that I wanted to be this sunflower – I can be thrown anywhere and still manage to live, bloom, and survive.

Since I literally stayed inside the house the whole weekend, I decided to pay the front yard a visit. It was 6 o’clock in the afternoon when I decided to go out and these sparkly flashes of light caught my attention. It’s just so mesmerizing to see how they sparkle against the leaves and branches of the tree, so calm and so natural. Reminds me of home.

P.S. I wasn’t able to do some journal writing and updating of blog post ideas because I realized I have to give my eyes and brain a break from the computer and from anything that will further exhaust them. But Ramadan is fast approaching so maybe I’ll use my spare time during those days to totally have some journal lovin’ and blog posts updating. Much love!   

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