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  • 17th April
    2014
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  • 14th April
    2014
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The Runaway Bride

The sun shines brighter than ever and the wind is blowing calmly. I don’t even want to wake up but the rays of the sun’s brushing through my face and the birds are chirping ever so loud on my window. Today’s no ordinary day. Almost everybody in our town was busy, running errands from here and there, people are out on the streets, some are happy, some are just curious, me? I don’t know. Honestly, I couldn’t find the words to express how I really feel today.

Finally, I was able to convince myself to wake up and took a cold shower. The water’s so cold it felt like my flesh is being torn into pieces of thin sheets. I managed to stay alive thankfully. As I stepped out of the bathroom, something caught my attention from the other side of the room, towards my closet. A beautiful coral turquoise dress was hanging there. It was about middle length in size I think, it has beautiful beads seemingly stitched all over its v – shaped neck. Then I realized something, this is the dress that I’m going to wear today. A Wedding. I have to attend a wedding today that’s why. I don’t even have a decent pair of shoes to match this beautiful dress. I decided to pair it with silver - strapped sandals with a little bit of turquoise accent to match.

i sat down in front of the mirror and looked at the pale - faced lady in front of me. I have to hide those dark circles under my eyes and cover my lips with coral peach lipstick so I could look alive at least. I put my long and wavy hair on a simple side braid and I’m good to go. Suddenly I remembered to do one more thing, to pack for my things. After the wedding, I planned to go on a vacation for a while.

I started the engine of my motorcycle, hanged my backpack to one of the handles together with my leather jacket. Half past ten o’clock when I decided to go to the church, and because of my get up, I have to take an alternative route, one where I should end up at the other side of the church’s parking lot. It was a five - minute drive so I arrived just on time. As I switched off the engine of my motorcycle, my feet got frozen to the ground. I couldn’t move a step forward, I’m feeling cold all over my body; even my hands are shaking. But I managed to put myself together, courageously walked towards the door of the church. I chose to sit near the door, on the left side, just so if I need to go out already I could easily do without them noticing it.

I heard people murmuring with each other, they’re so excited about this wedding. While I feel like a frozen statue from where I sit, and I can’t even breathe normally I feel like I’m about to throw my heart out. I sit calmly and quietly, as if don’t want people to feel my existence. Then suddenly, the door was closed. The wedding planner was asking for the entourage to go on their proper places. This is it. A few minutes after, the choir played the song already, I don’t know why but I can’t seem to hear it well. The door opened. And I just saw the most beautiful bride I will ever lay my eyes on.

I just can’t take my eyes off the bride. She looks like an angel sent from above. She’s wearing a Cinderella – like gown with a simple ribbon on the waistline. She looks so amazing. As she walked past through me, I noticed her hands were shaking; good thing she’s holding a beautiful set of bouquet. Every step away from where I sit kills me. As I saw the bride approaching the altar and about to hold the hand of her soon – to – be husband, makes me feel like my heart’s being broken into gazillion pieces.

The ceremony started and I managed to hold my shit for a little bit longer. Until the moment that I clandestinely waiting for, the part wherein the Priest would say “Speak now or forever hold your peace.” There’s a moment of silence. Nobody will ever speak for me and that’s for sure. Defeat. Loss. I decided to stand up and collect the broken pieces of my heart on the floor. I turned my back and started to walk towards to door, with my head down and tears falling from my eyes.

“Is that all you got huh? You’re just going to walk away and leave me here? Is this what you really want?” Am I hearing it right? Am I hearing someone yelling back at me? I stopped walking and looked back. I saw her crying; her hands and voice were shaking. “Sorry. I’m such a coward. If this is the life destined for you, so be it. You deserve to be happy.” My voice was trembling I can’t even say these words. “But I can’t do this. I don’t want to do this! I don’t want to do this if not with you!” she screamed back. I don’t know how or why but by some miracle, my heart rejoiced upon hearing those words. Tears are falling from her eyes, she held the hands of the groom and said, “I am so sorry. You deserve someone who will love you endlessly, I’m in love with someone else and I don’t want you to suffer because of that. You’re a good person and I know you’ll understand.” She took off the skirt of her wedding gown and exposed a shorter version of it inside. Everybody was in shock. She ran towards me, held my face and kissed me warmly. Oh boy that was one passionate kiss! “Such a coward bitch, but I love you. Let’s get out of here.” She said.

“Do you trust me?” I asked her. “What do you think?” she sarcastically replied. “Yeah right!” I held her hand and we went to the other side of the church’s parking lot, where I parked my motorcycle. “And so you’re planning to leave town without me?” she asked. “Nope. As selfish as it may seem but I was actually hoping for this to happen.” I replied; giving her a pair of hoodie jacket, sunglasses, and helmet. “Seriously, you’re wearing a low – cut converse on your wedding day? You’re really something babe.” I couldn’t help but to laugh upon seeing her on her low – cut converse, wearing a wedding gown turned dress, a hoodie jacket, and a helmet. I put on my leather jacket and helmet as well. “So where do you want to go now?” she asked me with a smile. “Wherever babe. Wherever our feet take us. As long as you’re with me.”

And that’s the legend of the runaway bride, the rest of the story as they say, was history. If this was a dream, I hope not.

(Source: brokenreylroad)

  • 8th April
    2014
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  • 6th April
    2014
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TIWALA LANG…KAYA YAN

Alas singko ng hapon, oras dito sa gitnang silangan, kung saan ako naroroon sa kasalukuyan. Kami lang ni Franella ang tao dito sa bahay kaya kapwa kami okupado sa kanya kanya naming mundo. Habang sya’s nanunuod ng The Simpsons sa Fox Movies, ako naman ay nakaupo dito sa sofa na di kalayuan sakanya at sinusubukang sumulat muli. Tama, sumulat muli. Hindi ko na maalala kung kailan ang huling beses na ako’y nagsulat. Naalala ko noong highschool pa lang ako, naging Associate Editor - in - Chief ako ng aming pahayagan. Lagi pa akong pinapatawag ng Principal namin noon dahil sa mga paksang napipili kong ilathala para sa aking column. Nariyan na ang pinaka kontrobersyal na “teacher - student relationship”, power tripping ng mga student council members, hanggang sa mga simpleng estudyanteng may kanya kanyang mannerisms, kahit ano basta nakakuha ng atensyon ko siguradong may maisusulat ako. Noong mga panahon kasing yon, tiwala ako na kaya kong mapanindigan bawat letra na lalabas sa column ko, bawat kataga, at bawat patutsada, wala akong pakialam kung may matamaan sa mga paksa ko, ang mahalaga ay naisulat ko kung anong andito sa isip at sa puso ko. Ayyy! ang ingay naman ni Mato kainis! nawala tuloy ako sa sasabihin ko. Franella! bigyan mo nga ng apple tong ibon na to potek ang ingay eh!

Asan na nga ulit ako? ahhh tiwala. Big word no? bakit ba ang sensitive ng mga tao kapag ang salitang ito ang pinag-uusapan? Lahat sila may gustong sabihin, lahat gustong makisali sa usapan, lahat gustong mapakinggan ang kanilang opinyon. TIWALA, TIWALA, TIWALA. Sa totoo lang ewan ko ba pero wala akong masabi dati pag dating sa usaping ito. Tiwala? ano yun? Ni hindi ko nga alam kung para saan yun eh, para san nga ba? Ano yung tiwala? san galing ang tiwala? sino ang nagbibigay, sino ang nakakatanggap? Pano mo malalaman kung dapat o hindi mo pa da dapat ito ibigay, o karapat dapat o hindi ba karapat dapat ang pagbibigyan mo nito? Ilan lang ito sa mga tanong na pumasok sa isip ko ngayon lang, at lalo pa akong napaisip, napaisip ng napaisip.

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(Source: brokenreylroad)

  • 3rd April
    2014
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1. My brother passed his Trigonometry subject and they’re all set for vacation already.
2. Mom’s random morning calls with dad eavesdropping on our conversation, cute!
3. My girlfriend’s team will proceed to the finals of the 2014 volleyball league organized by the capitol of Occidental Mindoro. I’m so proud of you babe! ♥
4. Catching up UAAP Season 76 WV and fan girl mode over DLSU Lady Spikers
5. This OCD of mine kicked again so my desk became this freaking clean and organized working area.
6. Been eating a lot of fruits lately
7. Got my new kicks already and will definitely start working out next week.
8. Already found a place in Dubai wherein I can continue my surfing lessons, it’s kind of CME feels because of the controlled environment and machine – generated waves but I’ll give it a try.
9. New found love: drownintoabyss.wordpress.com by DLSU WV Team former captain Aby Maraño. I must admit, I fell in love with her writing skills.
10. And now, I’m inspired enough to go back and write again.
Happy Weekend ahead guys! spread the love♥

1. My brother passed his Trigonometry subject and they’re all set for vacation already.

2. Mom’s random morning calls with dad eavesdropping on our conversation, cute!

3. My girlfriend’s team will proceed to the finals of the 2014 volleyball league organized by the capitol of Occidental Mindoro. I’m so proud of you babe!

4. Catching up UAAP Season 76 WV and fan girl mode over DLSU Lady Spikers

5. This OCD of mine kicked again so my desk became this freaking clean and organized working area.

6. Been eating a lot of fruits lately

7. Got my new kicks already and will definitely start working out next week.

8. Already found a place in Dubai wherein I can continue my surfing lessons, it’s kind of CME feels because of the controlled environment and machine – generated waves but I’ll give it a try.

9. New found love: drownintoabyss.wordpress.com by DLSU WV Team former captain Aby Maraño. I must admit, I fell in love with her writing skills.

10. And now, I’m inspired enough to go back and write again.

Happy Weekend ahead guys! spread the love♥

(Source: brokenreylroad)

  • 24th March
    2014
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Dear You

To my future wife, this letter is my comprehensive self – analysis. There are things about me which I think is important for you to know. For you to be guided accordingly, I’ve decided to divide this letter into sub categories. Please do yourself a favor and finish reading this; i swear all these facts will help you a lot.

Personality Check

♥ I’m hilarious. I’m a bubbly person, I love jokes and I always play around with people, I laugh crazily and loudly, seriously, you can drop even the lamest joke on me and I would laugh my heart out. You can easily make me laugh that’s for sure! You won’t even think that you spit the most horrible joke ever.

♥ I’m a very positive person. When troubles and trials are thrown my way, I might feel down for a while but sure I know how to turn everything upside down. People might perceive it as complacency but little did they know, it’s just me, trying to look at the brighter side when everyone else seemed to close the freaking window.

♥ OCD. You might find me a bit over detail – oriented. You’re in deep shit if I started to obsess over something. Things which are not on their proper position freaks the hell out of me so if you don’t want to see me egg rolling on the floor, I bet you know what to do.

♥ Oftentimes I tend to complicate things, but you will make things easier for me because it’s freaking the heck out of you seeing me all stressed out. You’d love me that much.

♥ There maybe times that my insecurities will kick in and I’d be obsessing about my physical flaws - like the stretch marks on my thighs, my height even, and how my the color of my left and right armpit is not the same! I would want you to look at me straight into my eyes, and tell me just how beautiful I am to you, kiss me on the forehead, and I’ll be fine.

♥ I’m not the type of person who can easily express her emotions vocally. I don’t usually say what I really feel inside. I don’t often say sorry after a fight. I do know how to accept my mistakes but I may not be able to say it most of the time, however, I can just make you feel my sincerity. Please talk to me first and then I’ll respond with warm hugs and kisses.

♥ I’m a very observant person and I do have a very good research skill. You don’t have to tell me everything about you because that’s for me to discover. I would love to remember every single detail about you, you’d be surprise I even noticed it.

♥ I value my friends like a family. Please understand if there are time wherein I’ll be going home very late at night. I’ve been going out with the same set of friends for as far as I can remember. Trust that I’m safe with them because they will take good care of me.

♥ I hate the feeling of being ignored. Also, if I feel like you’re being complacent already just because you knew how much I love you. If there are times that I don’t reply on your messages, don’t hesitate to call me, because sometimes, I do it on purpose to test if you’re really that worried to go all the way to call me.

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(Source: brokenreylroad)

  • 22nd March
    2014
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After almost two months, i was able to do this post about my first adventure here in the MidEast. It’s still winter and definitely a very good time to go to the desert to have some action. Half past eight when we left the house already. Never had breakfast so we decided to stop over a gasoline station to order for hot milk and buy some snacks, then we saw this road full of vintage sports car, and i can’t help but to went gaga over the cars! Ok enough of the cars. Here’s the real story goes…

First stop - Friday Market. We stopped by this market which is very cool because i realized, it’s actually a tourist destination. The market sells variety of products - from fresh fruits and vegetables to high quality carpet and pottery and kitchen utensils. We went shopping for fruits and vegetables which of  course, filled the entire compartment of the car. 

Second destination - Fujairah Desert. We saw these camels passing on our way to the desert.  I’m a bit afraid to go out of the car so i just took this snapshot. Seriously, i never thought going out on a desert during winter would be this cool, like literally cool. We experienced adrenaline rush when we started strolling around the desert which is crazy because you’d really think you’ll get lost because every way looked the same. I was so mesmerized by its beauty. The sand’s so fine and seriously, the scene is breathtaking! It’s funny because i thought it’s only in the movies but we actually saw these three Arab men, each riding a camel and strolling around the desert!

On our way home, we decided to have a detour and went to Ras Al Kaimah. There’s this place dedicated for pure hardcore desert action! I asked my uncle if we could also try and boy it was so fun! I haven’t tried the four wheeled ATV though, but next time for sure i will. 

A beautiful sunset was definitely a perfect picture to end an adrenaline - filled day. Isn’t it a beauty?

After almost two months, i was able to do this post about my first adventure here in the MidEast. It’s still winter and definitely a very good time to go to the desert to have some action. Half past eight when we left the house already. Never had breakfast so we decided to stop over a gasoline station to order for hot milk and buy some snacks, then we saw this road full of vintage sports car, and i can’t help but to went gaga over the cars! Ok enough of the cars. Here’s the real story goes…

First stop - Friday Market. We stopped by this market which is very cool because i realized, it’s actually a tourist destination. The market sells variety of products - from fresh fruits and vegetables to high quality carpet and pottery and kitchen utensils. We went shopping for fruits and vegetables which of course, filled the entire compartment of the car.

Second destination - Fujairah Desert. We saw these camels passing on our way to the desert. I’m a bit afraid to go out of the car so i just took this snapshot. Seriously, i never thought going out on a desert during winter would be this cool, like literally cool. We experienced adrenaline rush when we started strolling around the desert which is crazy because you’d really think you’ll get lost because every way looked the same. I was so mesmerized by its beauty. The sand’s so fine and seriously, the scene is breathtaking! It’s funny because i thought it’s only in the movies but we actually saw these three Arab men, each riding a camel and strolling around the desert!

On our way home, we decided to have a detour and went to Ras Al Kaimah. There’s this place dedicated for pure hardcore desert action! I asked my uncle if we could also try and boy it was so fun! I haven’t tried the four wheeled ATV though, but next time for sure i will.

A beautiful sunset was definitely a perfect picture to end an adrenaline - filled day. Isn’t it a beauty?

  • 21st March
    2014
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  • 19th March
    2014
  • 19

A Letter from Nobody

You are more than just the excess cellulites and layers in your belly or thigh. You are beautiful in someone else’s eyes, I want you to know that. If you have a plus-size body shape so be it, others are starving to death on the other side of the world, so consider yourself lucky on that note. Do not let the blind and poor judgment of other people take away the true essence of your womanhood. Just because they couldn’t see the beauty in you doesn’t mean you’re not beautiful at all. Your physique does not define your wholeness as a person. It’s how you see yourself, how you perceive things, how you behave and act towards the negativity around you, how you treat other people, and how you appreciate things when no one even cares to notice. Believe in yourself. You are beautiful; you just have to trust that. ♥

(Source: brokenreylroad)

  • 19th March
    2014
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                                             C U R R E N T L Y …
♥ reading and browsing emails from my outlook.
♥ writing a request for quotation to four different suppliers
♥ listening to the weird noise upstairs I don’t even know where exactly upstairs
♥ watching this day go by slowly..and hopefully as smooth as the previous days
♥ thinking about my mom and her upcoming procedure. Thinking about it makes me really sad and worried and scared all at the same time. It’s really frustrating because I’m not there to hold her hand and say “I’ll be here, I’ll stay by your side, and I will wait for you to go out of that operating room”. it makes me sick to death. as if what happened to my dad last November wasn’t traumatic enough for me yet.
♥ smelling the perfumes all around the office. yes. because I am actually surrounded by it.
♥ wishing for my mom’s procedure to be successful and that she’d be able to get through this safe and sound
♥ hoping that everything will turn out just fine
♥ wearing a light blue polo shirt and a white skinny jeans for office. embracing the “clean and simple” look 
♥ loving the fact that i was blessed enough to have such a wonderful girlfriend who always give me the strength when I’m weak, and who’ll always be there for me.
♥ wanting to go to Global Village in Dubai before it ends this year
♥ needing to have a Skype date again with my mom.
♥ feeling a bit scared and sad because of my mom’s condition and I can’t be there physically to comfort her at least
Workweek starts today and i pray that this day would be a friendly one for me. I could really use a couple of good vibes because i’m feeling down lately..so down that i can’t even hide it anymore from the people around me. If I may request to all kids out there to just give your parents a warm hug for like 10 seconds and tell them how much you love them, it would mean a lot to them. ♥

                                             C U R R E N T L Y …

♥ reading and browsing emails from my outlook.

♥ writing a request for quotation to four different suppliers

♥ listening to the weird noise upstairs I don’t even know where exactly upstairs

♥ watching this day go by slowly..and hopefully as smooth as the previous days

♥ thinking about my mom and her upcoming procedure. Thinking about it makes me really sad and worried and scared all at the same time. It’s really frustrating because I’m not there to hold her hand and say “I’ll be here, I’ll stay by your side, and I will wait for you to go out of that operating room”. it makes me sick to death. as if what happened to my dad last November wasn’t traumatic enough for me yet.

♥ smelling the perfumes all around the office. yes. because I am actually surrounded by it.

♥ wishing for my mom’s procedure to be successful and that she’d be able to get through this safe and sound

♥ hoping that everything will turn out just fine

♥ wearing a light blue polo shirt and a white skinny jeans for office. embracing the “clean and simple” look 

♥ loving the fact that i was blessed enough to have such a wonderful girlfriend who always give me the strength when I’m weak, and who’ll always be there for me.

♥ wanting to go to Global Village in Dubai before it ends this year

♥ needing to have a Skype date again with my mom.

♥ feeling a bit scared and sad because of my mom’s condition and I can’t be there physically to comfort her at least

Workweek starts today and i pray that this day would be a friendly one for me. I could really use a couple of good vibes because i’m feeling down lately..so down that i can’t even hide it anymore from the people around me. If I may request to all kids out there to just give your parents a warm hug for like 10 seconds and tell them how much you love them, it would mean a lot to them. ♥

(Source: brokenreylroad)

  • 16th March
    2014
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